I just feel so bowled over and stressed by the prospect of trousers. I've got half-finished trousers all over my sewing space. Trouser fit is a big deal in terms of like, you've got to be able to move in them but they also have to look sleek. & you can't really drape them on a mannequin either, and they take up so much fabric while you're experimenting with them as well. A big part of the problem is like, my trouser drafting book doesn't give you vital information about the seat angle, it just says "now adjust the seat angle"
I spent a goodly chunk of time trying to make the Vincent trouser draft into a sewable state (lol Victorian Tailor why did you publish a pattern you knew to be unuseable because commenters on your paid-for article told you it was unusable before you went to print? When are we going to see a single photograph of anything you have personally sewn, anywhere on the internet?) So I have a handful of like, bad drafts with earflaps and which are overly tight; and from that I kinda established how to frankenpattern something Victorianesque with any ole pattern, if only I could find one.
I just feel quite badly freaked by the prospect of trying it all again, and the awareness that maybe soon the fat distribution of my butt will change is also demoralising me, like I don't want to waste the fabric I have
But like obvs all my horrible shirts will look a lot nicer coupled with a proper high waist trouser? & I just need to suck it up and use a women's trouser pattern because literally nobody but me will know; but like, literally nobody but me will care either, and I care a LOT.
Sewing is hard for me because it's a feelings sink for all these shitty parts of my life, like wanting to be in a creative career where I'll be judged on what I can do rather than arbitrary white collar workplace ettiquette, and not wanting to be in the body I have any more; and so it's load-bearing for all this other crap that weighs hard on my ability to complete basic tasks like, choose a pattern cut it out then sew it.
Anyway, this is New Look Maudella 6155. I am waist: 34in/86.36cm, seat: 42in/106.68cm. This makes me a size 16 (76/102), but really I'm a touch bigger so need to leave a bit of extra room. This is what I kinda hate about patterns vs drafting something yourself, and you can't always tell where to add the surplus as well.