I have no idea what I'm going to share here, really, but welcome all the same!

Caution! Reconstruction in process! Some pages are dead ends or have dodgy css. Pages are a mix of mobile friendly and unfriendly. I'm gradually doing over the site, but not taking it offline for dignity as i do so so you'll just have to tread carefully!

Click to explore the house!

or navigate with the link-list!

Single Pages

re-encountering the older internet is like re-learning your mother tongue, like you've been away for many years and you're suddenly very self aware of being different than your actual mother who speaks with fluency and uses words you've forgotten. deargoodness, have you noticed what a skill it is to contribute to dreamwidth and forums? It's sort of astonishing, a different kind of noticing and a different kind of awakeness - not smog, not drifting, but actual presence - and the absolute horror of realising you can't click like and you're going to have to...write an actual response. like just "I notice you" is not enough, you've got to think a little bit, not grazing or consuming, and deargoodness you have to find something to say. For all that social media is supposedly social, I find the conscious work of replying to my DW friends posts, like, i have to put time aside for it like you would an email.

I'm passionate about Bob Fisher's Haunted Generation and through that, read Marianne Dreams. I'm reminded of it because Mark, a little boy with polio, is struggling to relearn the use of his legs - which is rather what this is like. Something I could once do but have forgotten how. But perhaps that comes to me because Marianne Dreams is about a bedbound girl who draws a house, and whenever she dreams the house is where she goes - and she meets Mark there, another real person, but one who is somehow sharing the dream she created.

Welcome, stranger, to the house I drew.

Page Credits

  • linkable house graphic by Cottage Row Graphics. omg, i thought these were so cool when i was nine, so thank you for making my dreams come true.
  • layout adapted from eggramen - i've made it mobilefriendly
  • Problem-solving for mobile friendly update thanks to code & learning from Every Layout

To Do

  • The original layout had everything justified towards the center axis in a way i liked. But how to make that mobile friendly?
  • I'd like to make the main text boxes narrower, but widen up when in mobile view; how?
  • The original sidebar had a fixed sidebar which followed you when you scrolled. I'd like a modern version of that; or, at least, for it to not be so long in desktop mode...

Credits for Club Narcissus include: